It's been awhile.....


Jethro and I are still a thing. I love him, he loves me....things are things. He just had neck surgery...scared me half to death. He's on the mend though, and I look forward to him being...ah...fully recovered and off of the painkillers. We bought a Harley that neither of us can afford. I started smoking again. I was in a car accident that fucked my back up further and forced me to get rid of the minivan. 22 year old bitch driving the other car had NO insurance. Driving a 2002 car, with auto insurance cancelled for non-payment. At least I sleep better at night knowing that the dumbass will never again see a car loan. It's not much, but it's something....

I'm broke. Really, really, like rent was 10 days late and cell bill is something I'm going to have to zig and zag on. My roots are showing and my hair looks like hell. Most of my clothes are stained or ripped in one way or another. And my chiropractor and another of his patients treated me to a conversation about buying vacation homes and a 2.2 mil fully furnished manse that the other guy on the heating pad has to sell. Go into the kitchen here at work and the discussion is all about college....I can't afford that...somewhat thankful that my son is a bit of an ...ahem...underachiever. Trade school....that's the route for him. So. I've been on the verge of tears, if not actively crying, for a couple of days now.

I'm rambling....the Bailey's in my desk drawer is seeming like not the worst idea ever. We do have coffee in the kitchen.